Some Juice.

I was driving home a little while ago after a great day.  That one Rascal Flatts song came on the radio... it goes "And I wouldn't change a thing...." something something "Walk right through the rain..."  I don't know the rest, but it made me realize this:  some of the greatest things in life bring some of the greatest heartaches imaginable.  Today was a great day to realize this, too.  I would go through the awful shit that I have gone through 10 more times ... more than that if necessary... if it meant I got to experience the somewhat short-lived, unimaginable joy I went through before it... even if it lasted for only, say, a week...a few months....  With all the conviction I have, I say this: I wouldn't change one thing. I would not give up that wonderfulness to spare me from the pain after.  It was all worth it.  And I thank God from the bottom of my heart :)  That's part of what makes life so beautiful.  

So I guess it's kind of the opposite of what the song is talking about.... but still.

Hello.

I can foresee me becoming an angry person because of this blog.  In case this does happen, I promise I am a lovely individual who doesn't hate everything.  But a girl has to bitch somewhere.

  The reason I decided to start blogging (haha what a word) is because I am "too nice."  I will take hours out of my sweet time to listen to people... and I truly do care.  I want to listen.  I'm good at it and I have learned how to love it.  However, after years of not being listened to and having to deal with that, I'm getting tired.  I bust my butt to not be a selfish blabber who is either trying to prove herself or is just mean.  Do you follow?  I am saying I have a LOT to say.  So this is my way of saying it without forcing it on you. I am weary of trying to put in my two cents over the obnoxious yellings of others who refuse to grow up. 

I am already getting a little worked up.  This is great.  

So, damn it, sometimes you are to get this side of me... swear words and all.  I am as I appear: happy, sweet, kind, caring... but the tables turn... I am also: sassy, cynical at times, angry, sad, bitchy.   Some of the stuff I say on here will be one, other stuff with be the other.  Just depends.  This particular blog is clearly on the cynical side. 

Enjoy.